Content

I have been content for some time now.  I've got new 'Fun Tunes' that have helped me pick myself up again.  Don't get me wrong, so many people have helped along the way.  Either way... it was time to rid of the old blog as I've moved forward and am simply taking life day by day.  There are going to be Up's and Down's as each day passes and I'm ready for them.  I'm smiling again and have been for some time.  I wouldn't say I'm happy, as I don't believe in permanent happiness.  All happiness is temporary in my book.  I can argue the subject until I'm blue in the face... It just isn't real.  However I can say that being 'CONTENT' is perfectly imperfect.  There are no expectations when you declare yourself content.  I don't have to smile if I'm not feeling it, I don't have to fake happiness and I don't have to feel bad about a nice eyelash wash every now and then.  It's good for the soul.  It keeps me REAL.  It reminds me that nobody is perfect and nobody else is capable of making me happy if I can't do it for myself...because it simply isn't real.  The newness of a friendship or relationship is temporary happiness.  A great laugh is temporary happiness, until you recall it and it floods your mind with pleasant memories.  Even that passes...  Life happens.  Just go with it.